Äkitselt peatusin poolel sammul. Olin avanud oma kalendri augustikuu kohalt nagu alati, et kirjutada puhtasse valgesse nädala- ja kuupäevaga varustatud kasti napp kokkuvõte viimase 12 tunni tegevustest. Tülgastunult nägin, et olin eneselegi teadmatult lõpule jõudnud augusti viimase päevaga. Homme on september. Mu Jumal! Kogu mu päevade nobe tühisus langes tulvana mu peale ja tahtsin abitus raevus karjuda sekundite, päevade ja aastate lootusetult paratamatu möödumise pärast...Tahan järgmised kolm päeva ja ööd ärkvel püsida, tõmmata oma suvekookoni lõngad hoolikalt enda ümber ning kõik lahtised otsad ära lõigata: maitset nautida, kuni sureb viimane laine, viimane koit, see paik siin, millest lahkumine tähendab lahkumist elmisega täidetud ruumist.

(Sylvia Plath, 1951. 18-aastane.)

appi kui friik see on.

so much.

erasmuslased.

think about it.

homer :)

day ten.

day ten. five favourite things in no order.

blueberries, the feeling you have when everything is still in the future, spain, singing patriotic songs out loud with thousands of people around me who have the same appreciation for estonia, baking.

• day one. five things your addicted to.
• day two. five states you’ve been to.
• day three. five musicians you’ve been listening to a lot lately.
• day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.
• day five. five things that always cheer you up.
• day six. dream future: 1-job, 2-city, 3-car, 4-spouse, 5-pet.
• day seven. five things that attract you to someone.
• day eight. five favorite tv shows.
• day nine. five celeb crushes.
• day ten. five favorite things in no order.

day nine.

see laul jäi ka mulle sytycd-st külge ja on minu nö selle suve laul.

day nine. five celeb crushes.

1. Neil Patrick Harris although he's gay.

2. Ed Westwick

3. Jake Gyllenhaal

4. Robert Pattinson

5. Johnny Depp forever.

mr robert roldan.

robert oleks ikkagi võinud võita. või noh, oleks poleks. lauren oli ka nii hea ju. ja kent ka. aga no robert!!! + fix you ja the pillow routine.

day eight.

day eight. five favourite tv shows.

1. friends

2. the office

3. how i met your mother

4. lost

5. gossip girl

• day one. five things your addicted to.
• day two. five states you’ve been to.
• day three. five musicians you’ve been listening to a lot lately.
• day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.
• day five. five things that always cheer you up.
• day six. dream future: 1-job, 2-city, 3-car, 4-spouse, 5-pet.
• day seven. five things that attract you to someone.
• day eight. five favorite tv shows.
• day nine. five celeb crushes.
• day ten. five favorite things in no order.

day seven.

day seven. five things that attract you to someone.

this is tricky because it is so different depending on the particular person. it can be looks, it can be the sound of their voice (that's very often the case), it can be wisdom, it can be humor, the way they act around and towards me. eyes!!

• day one. five things your addicted to.
• day two. five states you’ve been to.
• day three. five musicians you’ve been listening to a lot lately.
• day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.
• day five. five things that always cheer you up.
• day six. dream future: 1-job, 2-city, 3-car, 4-spouse, 5-pet.
• day seven. five things that attract you to someone.
• day eight. five favorite tv shows.
• day nine. five celeb crushes.
• day ten. five favorite things in no order.

well do you?

day six.

olen suvekoolist tagasi, seal oli nii hea. käisime liisuga reede õhtul vabaduse väljakul ühtelaulmisel ka, see oli nii vahva. ja suvekool oli niiiii mõnus. oled seal mulli sees mõned päevad, siis tagasi päris maailma tulla on veider. mitte positiivselt. nii relaxing. love, unity.

ai, kui head on need inimesed.

day six. dream future.

1. job: something without a certain schedule, not from 9-5, that's for sure. but my dream job would probably be either with unicef or amnesty international. oh well.

2. city: new york city. or tartu. i have also thought that i could live on the north shore of estonia, in a village right by the sea. but that's when i'm older, i think.

3. car: one with good mileage. something cute.

4. spouse: someone who is there no matter what.

5. pets: no pets.

i can't imagine settling down though. weird, huh?

• day one. five things your addicted to.
• day two. five states you’ve been to.
• day three. five musicians you’ve been listening to a lot lately.
• day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.
• day five. five things that always cheer you up.
• day six. dream future: 1-job, 2-city, 3-car, 4-spouse, 5-pet.
• day seven. five things that attract you to someone.
• day eight. five favorite tv shows.
• day nine. five celeb crushes.
• day ten. five favorite things in no order.

aga nii ongi ju.

To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die...

day 2-5.

nüüd ma pean vastama tänase eest ja ka järgneva kolme päeva eest, sest ma lähen homme varahommikul tallinna ja tulen alles pühapäeval.

day two. five states you've been to.

1. Florida. like home to me.

2. Georgia. second home.

3. New York. favourite actually. even though i was there for only 2 days, i can imagine living there.

4. Tennessee. Nashville!!!

5. We drove through the whole East coast + I've been to Alabama. Hahahaha, awesomeness. So i've been to a big part of the bible belt.

day three. five musicians you've been listening to a lot lately.

1. Still Florence.

2. Oasis.

3. Zetod. after being to 2 of their concerts this summer, i've been listening to their music a lot.

4. David Guetta. That guy is a genius. Everything he touches turns into gold. Club can't handle me!!!

5. Ingrid Michaelson. I am always listening to her.

day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.

1. Johnny Depp

2. Leonardo DiCaprio

3. Heath Ledger

4. Jake Gyllenhaal

5. Robert Pattinson

(obviously changed it to 5 male actors i would invite to my dinner party)

day five. five things that always cheer you up.

1. bob marley "3 little birds" every little thing is gonna be okay.

2. ice cream, chocolate.

3. thinking that i am actually pretty freaking lucky.

4. good surprises.

5. watching an episode of the gilmore girls. but then i'm sad again because i also want to live in stars hollow.

obsessed with this song right now. especially after hearing it on so you think you can dance all the time. wooohooooo.

10 days.

leidsin sellise asja ja kavatsen selle ära teha:

day one. five things your addicted to.

1. TV shows. I follow way too many.

2. sweets.

3. Internet obviously.

4. I become addicted to words/phrases very easily. I still keep saying joder all the time although I've been home over a month now.

5. randoming around. seriously, i can spend hours and hours doing nothing, it is rather amazing if you think about it. more sad than amazing actually. addictions are supposed to be negative, aren't they?

• day one. five things your addicted to.
• day two. five states you’ve been to.
• day three. five musicians you’ve been listening to a lot lately.
• day four. five famous people to invite to your dinner party. dead or alive.
• day five. five things that always cheer you up.
• day six. dream future: 1-job, 2-city, 3-car, 4-spouse, 5-pet.
• day seven. five things that attract you to someone.
• day eight. five favorite tv shows.
• day nine. five celeb crushes.
• day ten. five favorite things in no order.

dwight.

no mina ütlen, kui michael lahkub scrantonist, peaks dwight ülemuseks saama. ja jimi vastu kiusama.

see on nüüd natukene liiga pikk, aga kõik classic momendid. minu lemmik hakkab kuskil 7:27 peal. ooooootan nüüd uue hooaja algust. hakkangi ootama selle peale.

the romantics.

as annoying as katie holmes may be, ma tahan seda filmi näha. lihtsalt sest see on nii dawson's creek, nagu kirjutatakse + there's some serious eye candy (josh duhamel, adam brody, need i say more?).

vanity fairi ülinunnu rannafotode seeria. mm.

and i'm back in the game....!!

rohkem kui kuus kuud on möödas sellest, kui võtsin oma seitse asja ja läksin tundmatusse.

ja õppisin tundma.

aga mis sellest enam, nüüd olen tänaseks täpselt kuu aega juba tegelikult kodus olnud ja naudin täiega. no täiega mõnus on ikka eestis olla suvel. ainult eestis on nii roheline ja kollane ja sinine ja äge suvel minu meelest. kui ainult kestaks see ägedus terve aasta ringi. ilma mõttes mõtlen ma. nii ideaalne suveilm on olnud ju see aasta ja ma olen õnneks saanud sellest täitsa palju osa, nii vahva. olen olnud maal ja linnas ja folgil ja tallinnas ja idas ja tööl ja käinud kinos ja inceptioni üle vaimustunud ja eclipse'is pettunud ja lugenud (berit soovitas mulle mingi hetk raamatut "ma pidin surema musta lesena" ja tõesti hea oli) ja lihtsalt kohanenud ja harjunud sellega, et inimesed siin ei naerata, aga samas on siiramad, ei lärma, aga samas ütlevad asju, mis tähendavad palju rohkem, kuigi nad räägivad nii palju vähem. aga positiivsust võiks küll lõunamaalastelt õppida. ma väga loodan, et see jäi külge mulle.

ja õnneks calimocho on minuga kogu aeg. ainus, mis on vaja, on jää, punane vein ja coca ja olengi tagasi. vähemalt mõtetes.

aga pean õppima elama hetkes. to be in the moment. see on tegelikult raske.

ja hakkan plaanima uut seiklust ilmselt. tahan juba.

aga enne veel tuleb suve elada ja juba homme tättele ja nv reginaga itta kaasa jälle ja siis käsmu viru folgile, kuhu me armsast r2st piletid võitsime (sõitsime parajasti regina ja sillega tartu poole, kui raadios käis mingi mäng ja siis nemad olid mõlemad nii, et karoliiiii helista!!!! ja helistasin ja ajasin lolli juttu ja saingi) ja siis koju ilmselt tagasi pärast mere ääres päikese püüdmist ja siis tahan veel tallinna, et näha inimesi ja....minul tegelikult selles mõttes nii väga suvi ei lõppegi vist tegelikult, sest aineid võtan sellel sügisel vähe ja baka kirjutamisega kohe ilmselt ikka peale ei hakka, ei hakka endale valetama üldse :P kuigi kõik, kes selle nüüd üle elasid, soovitavad, et ikka peaks. ja ma tean, et peaks, aga mul pole teematki veel, nii et me ei räägi sellest üldse enam.

but i'm back to annoy.

lenna lenna lenna, kas enam mõnusamat valgust saab olla, kui siin videooos.